my birthday again

October 1st, 2006

Once again i am here posting on my own birthday i remember twice before i had posted about my birthday . The first time was in 2003 , when rakesh , surajit etc came down ; and in 2004 birthday i.e the second time when i had gifted myself the earlier mobile. It is nice to see I have been actually passing through my birthdays right on this blog .
This years birthday or even the pre-birthday has been great , since once again it fell within the Durga Puja’s . 30th Sept i.e yesterday was Mahaashtami and in the morning , i woke up only at 1:45 only to rush out to another meet with Nimish, Divya and Kanak. I was sort of giving my birthday treat and we met in Pizza Hut and after that we also went to CCD . All through the the afternoon we were literally playful as teenagers , in a way , which is pretty ironic , considering right now on the early morning of 1st October , i just have been thinking that i am actually 29 years of age . 29 , my gosh … in a year I will be like 30 , which is in a way frightening . An average human being lives aroun 60 and I am almost half past that . Where did all the years go ? Have i really let the time fly by me ? Has it been a waste in any way ? What have i achieved

….. To be quite frank , as much as certain people think I am too serious and too practical , I know there are also people who feel that I am actually quite lazy and easygoing and not at all focused. But to heck what others think . Personally I feel that I am here to enjoy …. enjoy in my own way , be it through work , be it through making friends , be it through making money or showing of my work , reaching whatever goals i have set for myself and be it through whatever i have desired to achieve or failed to achieve . One thing I know for certain , i do not regret anything I have said or done , I have made friends , money , touched other people and have been touched .
I was wondering how i can recapitulate the past 29 years in any units , if thats possible . I am sure there are many ways people would find , but I just thought of something …. everyday in our life we learn something . As a child we learn to speak , express our feelings, as kids we learn to read , write , grow habits , learn to respect …. as teenagers , we learnt to break the rules, rebel , grow some kind of individuality , find the fairer sex, hear the stories of birds and bees and much more. After the teenage ends, we learn that we actually live in a different world …. a world where using the F word is not a sin and using the L word is considered childish. This age after the teenage and before coming around the late 20’s was not a fully fun ride …. it is true , some of the learnings of prior time do not apply fully but in my case ( i cant say for all ) , some of it did help . Like for instance, seeing my elder brothers strive for their personal choosen path of being a doctor , against all family pressure. ( Today he is a London return doctor ). Or for instance , learning from my parents how to choose a good set of friends , I had almost gone astray during college , currently i believe I can easily locate a good set of friends , in any sphere of my life and easily distance myself from the ones with too much bad influence ; Another very important thing i learnt , which is the source of my strength at many times , that whatever I do , my own parents are the ones who will be behind me at all times , in good and bad , even if I ever leave them and coe back and many other things.
But after all this learning , one more important thing you learn is to put to use what you have learned . This is the time when you MUST use what you have learned and thats how you slowly start developing your true self ….. the more you put to use , the more you establish yourself and become one above the many . For many this is the time when you will also learn to let go …. let go of your free time, let go of many friendships. It is also the time when you should develop certain goals , and start trying to achieve them . The achieving goals part maybe a bit overrated and I personally also believe that too much cutthroat competition or zeal often leaves a bitter taste …… you will learn in days to come , as I have learnt , that ” nothing succeeds like success” . When you are the leader or near the top , it wont matter how many friends you had lost giving up your free time , because you will get even more … but beware when you are not staying at the top you are bound to have casualties again.

Currently I am little past learning and sometimes I am even teaching certain things that i have learnt … but that is not just “showing off ” , rather it is a part of the learning ….. what I have learnt was given to me by someone who had learnt them before and thought of me … so it is I believe our duties to impart some of it . But yet I too am learning , and learning almost every day ….. I have been learning to say ” NO ” when the moment decrees it , in the recent past , I am happy to say that i learnt to say ” I Do ” , I have also learnt and practised saying both …. ” I care ” and ” I dont care ” ,

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